politics: convictions and freedoms

so it's true, i never liked politics, though i must say that i have gained a bit more of an interest in politics since i've arrived in the netherlands.
knock off on Psalm 121:1-2 (which by the way, is a good passage to take seriously)
"I lift up my eyes to the Unites States of America--where does my norms/convictions come from? My norms/convictions come from the (Pop-culture American) media, the creator of (American) politics and (American) society."
this is so true to me. i never really thought about it until i was asked to delve into the politics of a foreign country. a lot of who i am is defined by how my country operates and controls my views and opinions. so often i find myself consumed by the standards presented by american pop-culture. our government is partially founded on morale, which i think is good, but it makes for a difficult account of realisitic opinion.
sometimes i do not have an opinion because i am simply mimicking the american worldview or maybe even the christian reformed worldview and not my own. its so easy to fall into a category and go along with everything that structures the outfit of the group.
i want my FREEDOM. i want my own convictions. i want to FREE myself of the influences worldview has on individuals. i wish i could be fresh, i wish i was not easily persuaded/convinced of the opinions of others.
i get confused in myself though. there are so many contradictions within my personal worldview (or lack there of). for example, i think it is important NOT to limit people from their freedom of choice; however, if i want to make a statement of my own personal opinions in government and hold my convictions above others so much so that it takes office in the government, i am taking away such freedoms in a sense. for government does have a sense of control and power over the people. government DOES have an influence. HOWEVER, statements are mandatory. it is important to be strong and confident in yourself and your convictions. people admire that sort of stature. influencing the people vs conforming the people to one standard view is different. you cannot take away a mans right of choice. man will always be free to violate/go against the government. SO... then does that make it just to ban abortion? for what if it is the choice of the woman to keep or destroy her child? where do you draw lines?
that may be why i admire the dutch government. it overlooks the freedoms that it offers the people. they may make the choice of euthanasia, abortion, prostitution, etc. the government will not say NO, but the government leaders are free to suggest their own conviction and belief. BUT--is a voice as powerful as a movement/action? no... so now we're back at ground zero.

if you're going to support something, it is important to develop reasons WHY you support it.
i hate that culture and society, government and religion, have such an influence on our personal intakes on life.