relationships here vs there

the fearless dutch vs the absoluut polite american
americans are too afraid to offend, i think. they are fake. they are polite and friendly on the outside, and could be cussing in the only language they know on the inside. it's a really bad way to relate to people. living in fear of offending, or better, living in fear of being rejected. because our social structure is so free, it ruins confidence. who wants to be themselves if all their life they'd been a lsoer, bookworm, geek, freak! yeah that's right. we really do have that segregation by rank of popularity. evidence of the effects of pop-culture perhaps.
its sad really. living in fear of being rejected ALL THE TIME. you find your place and you stay there all your life. (ever seen mean girls or the new kid--these films may be a bit exagerated, but really, thats america for you). i spoke to a popular girl once in high school because she wanted to tell me this, "i envy you, karyn, because you have FRIENDS" that startled me. why? because she was popular. she had friends everywhere! but she continued to say, "the people i'm seen with, they're just there because they're put there. they're there to talk about the latest (fashion, break-up, etc). its the gossip column! there's no shoulders to cry on when you really need it." that hit me--envious of ME! my friends and i aren't even that great. half of them are partiers and they're just friends because we have one thing in common, GET DRUNK and BE SOMEBODY! the other friends are their to keep me in check. friends?! relationships in the states are PATHETIC! we're too proud, too independent, too stubborn! we rarely admit we're wrong, we rarely ask for help, we rarely re-construct our convictions, because we're ALWAYS right. how aweful!
now i am generalizing. this of course is not true, but i've noticed it more coming here. i feel that the equality of people is more valued at the GH. sure america, the land of the free, has "equality" between cultures, races, etc. by government standards, but we are still so very far from being equal. the minorities are spat on and the majorities are hit satire television programs! go AMERICA! shine on you shabby diamond! the kingdom of pop-culture and falsetty.
the hollywood romance is one of the leading causes of divorce in american. why? because it shows love as a passionate, good feeling, always turns out right kind of scenario. WAKE UP REALITY! hollywood is an industry, its trying to sell us our desires--our idealized dreams! Gah...ive been doing a whole lot of country bashing, perhaps next time i write i'll have something good to say.